I have been under a lot of stress lately. I mean a whole mess of stress. And I wish I had something philosophical to say about how it makes us stronger. Or something spiritual, like how it brings us closer to God. But all I can really say about stress is that it makes me fat. Yep I eat my stress. If I've had a bad day my husband gets a text requesting emergency cup cakes be picked up on his way home. Or I'll make myself nacos at 10 o'clock at night. And to add insult to injury, when I'm stressed my cortisal levels go sky high and I start holding on to weight with even the healthiest of diets. The only thing stress brings me closer to is the next size up in ladies wear.
So, I am stressed. I'm eating crap. I'm not sleeping. I'm getting depressed about getting fat. And my chronic, but usually controlled, pain causing disorder is now flaring up. Fabulous.
I know how easy it is to get stuck. But right now I'm not ready to go back to healthier ways. It's partly because I know no drastic change is going to make it through Christmas which is days away at this point. Part of it is because I know it will be easier when things become less stressful. But really I'm just not ready.